i really learnt a lot in this short period of time.
you know like during this phase of my life, when i'm going through quite a bit of hardship, i've really learnt how to trust in God.. and ultimately how to rely on His strength. i guess it's always easy to say how much i want to lean on Him, but i always just end up depending on myself. and like how i always prayed as though it's all about Him, but actually i behave like it's all about me.
what i experienced during this period:
1. the amazing grace of God that motivated me to study.
i always knew i was supposed to honour God in my studies, and i always prayed that i'll have the motivation to study, the ability to do well, and just productive study. but i guess i never exactly relied on God. and just leaning on His strength, today was incredible. i studied for idk good gazillion bahzillion hours at my dad's workplace and i really THANK GOD for it.
2. to bring people back to Him
i guess the importance on evangelism has been repeated so many times but it sort of became an "one ear in, one ear out" sort of thing. but when my faith was SO reassured and SO refreshed during this period, it sort of reminded me the urgency of how i need to get the people around me saved. ESPECIALLY since the end times is near. it's super terrifying i tell you and I DO NOT WANT ANYONE and i don't just mean my loved ones, i mean REALLY ANYONE OR EVERYONE, to die without experiencing the goodness of the Lord.
3. the magnificent love of God
i cry easily. but i thank God that i have my lovely friends to ALWAYS comfort me, to ALWAYS lend me their shoulders, to ALWAYS listen to my woes, to ALWAYS give me a tight furry bear hug, to ALWAYS pray for me, to ALWAYS encourage me, to ALWAYS reassure me that i can count on them to help me through my difficult times, to ALWAYS give me words of encouragement, to JUST ALWAYS LOVE ME. and i'm so blessed in this aspect, i've all of you darling friends who just stand by me and i can't express how much i appreciate all of you. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU. God's been so good to me. friends are one of God's ways to show His love.
and through this whole rough patch, I KNOW MY GOD IS GREATER THAN ANY SITUATION, THAN ANY CIRCUMSTANCE, THAN ANY PERSECUTION, THAN ANY CONDEMNATIONS, THAN ANY DIFFICULTY I'M FACING. maybe that's why God even placed me in this whole situation in the first place. i never trusted or relied in Him enough last time. i kept trusting my own abilities.
thank you God.
FAITH BEGINS WHERE MAN'S POWER ENDS.
