Sera Cheng Jean Lyn,
i trust in God alone :)

Ngee Ann Polytechnic
Pharmacy Science, class of 2012.

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(you don't have to continue if you don't want to.)

it sucks doesn't it? when you're having all these rapid flashbacks of moments you thought would last forever. but yet in a snap, it's over. everything's over.

it didn't sink it at first. i was still in disbelief. but how can i not come to the point of acceptance after so many months? the harsh reality sinks in and darts of pain just shoot through me, and my heart. it would have been easier to bear if it's physical pain, but no. i'm abusing myself emotionally. (seriously i should stop listening to lugubrious songs because it's really not helping.)

i thought i'll be stronger. never knew i'll let myself give way just like that. you had things going, way too fast. i can't keep up with speed, i can't keep up with myself. chasing and chasing.. i'm not caught yet.

they said time heals everything, they certainly do not know you. time? how long will it take? move on? you never taught me how to. i don't mean to drag things on, but i can't seem to let go of everything yet. i tried to carry on like i never knew you. i thought i succeeded in convincing myself that i was completely over you. thought. perhaps i had you etched too deep in my mind.

i should have known better. i wasn't ready at all. you sucked me into this black hole, this bottomless pit of no return. i don't even know how to get back up. i tried ignored every ache at every flashback, but it's too painful to handle.

feeling like such a hapless doe right now.
i'm swimming in an ocean alone.